These are the things that nobody ever told me. Nobody told me when I chose to have a child, that my life would be forever affected. And not just in the obvious ways; no free time, no alone time, nothing to myself ever again. Instead, I find that every decision I make is made with my daughter in mind. Do I go out tonight? What's for dinner? Do I dare vacuum the living room at 7 pm? Decisions that were so insignificant before, decisions that didn't warrant a second thought, decisions that at one time didn't even qualify as decisions.
And then, before you know it, it moves on to things more significant. Did my choices affect you? Will you remember them when you are grown? Will they shape you into the person you'll become? Will you understand me? Will you resent me? So many questions. So few answers. How do I ever know I am doing things right?
